Well earlier I had a conversation with a friend, and at the end I felt an odd sense of well something, satisfaction and closure as I realized I had grown up just a little bit more… in any case here it is.

Friend: did you see her recent post?
Me: No, I usually wait until someone tells me I better check it out. What’s wrong this time?
Friend: she wrote about you again
Me: I’m not really surprised.
Friend: ya but she said she was over it how can she be over it if she is still bad mouthing people? like you and that fake death blog she wrote because Milena pissed her off
Me: Well she can say what she wants and do what she wants. Anyway I just read it, yeah it’s about me. I guess she found my post about forgiveness offending, that’s a shame, I thought it was a nice feel good piece.
Friend: it’s so infuriating! she talks about you taking the position to make yourself happy and then a few posts later talks about getting a position to make her happy. does she not see this?
Me: Probably not, but it may explain her behavior. We’ve all been able to forgive each other and not dwell on mistakes, but she wants to point to mistakes and scream “don’t forget!” What’s worse is she’s twisting every little bit because she knows I don’t care enough to correct her, and even if I did she’d just call me a liar, but it doesn’t matter.
Friend: she’s the liar! all of this started because she lied to your Master.
Me: Heh well my Master did lie to her too, although he’s apologized several times for it. Oh well…
you know, I use to feel pity for her. When this all first started a little while ago, I said to my Master that he should try to talk to her somehow, maybe get her Master involved and just honestly sit down and say “how can we make this a little better?”
Friend: what he say to that?
youd think her Master would want her to stop focusing on it. how can she serve fully if shes so stuck on the past and your Master?
Me: He said he’d think about it, but now I don’t really think it’s a good idea, she’s not ready to act dignified about this.
-shrugs- I dunno but I don’t really care anymore, what was sympathy has boiled down to disappointment.
Friend: ya
Me: In the end, she can do what she wants and say what she wants, and I can do what I want and say what I want and at the end of the day all that matters to me is if I’m happy with how I carry myself, and the answer is yes I am happy with myself. I’m even more proud of my Master… he’s changed so much because of this.
Friend: its because of you
Me: aww… shucks
Friend: its true. you’ve helped him be at peace with himself
Me: He’s done the same for me.

So… kajirae! Lend me your ears…. too long have we been labeled as ‘catty’, ‘drama queens’ and ‘princesses’. Let us shed ourselves of this ridiculous nature. Let us move on and be dignified, beautiful, graceful creatures. No more tripping over our egos, our hurt feelings, our pride, instead, let us kneel at our Master’s feet, laugh with our sisters in bondage, and smile as we serve the Free. It will hurt, it will be hard, it will not always be the most satisfactory of actions, but we must, for our own sake.